I make now a stand for belief that I'm steadfast
In hating all of the bullshit you give me
About my future, present and past
Who are you to infringe your values upon me?
(I've learned the hard way)
Stepping on my toes, you've put my back to the wall
(My back to the wall)
I've been told a thousand times to give respect when due
Why do you find it so hard to believe, I've got none for you
It's my heart and my mind that I'll always follow
(I will not break)
Nor will my balls although that I've seen that you've tried before
(Why are people fake?)
Maybe you're older, wiser in your own right, it's your mistake
I'm gonna do my own thing regardless, my choice to make
I am real, in touch with my feelings and I know my place
You have shown, on the other hand, both sides of your face
I see the world in a different light
Things are always black and white
Through all these years still to this day
My hardened eyes see only shades of grey
I would never try and tell you what was right from wrong
Maybe that's why you feel that I don't belong
Always put me down for things I've said and done
Can't you see it's a war that can't be won
A war that can't be won
Living in your world seems so clear on concise
Shutting out reality makes everything so nice
Paint a pretty picture, black and white everyday
See my tattered canvass bleeding shades of grey
Maybe you're older, wiser in your own right, it's your mistake
I'm gonna do my own thing regardless my choice to make
Shades of fucking grey
I sit alone in my four-cornered room staring at candles
Oh that sh*it is on?
Let me drop some sh*it like this here, real smooth
At night I can't sleep, I toss and turn
Candlesticks in the dark, visions of bodies being burned
Four walls just staring at a n*gga
I'm paranoid, sleeping with my finger on the trigger
My mother's always stressin' I ain't living right
But I ain't goin' out without a fight
See, every time my eyes close
I start sweating and blood starts coming out my nose
It's somebody watching the Ak'
But I don't know who it is so I'm watching my back
I can see him when I'm deep in the covers
When I awake I don't see the motherf*cker
He owns a black hat like I own
A black suit and a cane like my own
Some might say take a chill, B
But f*ck that sh*it, there's a n*gga trying to kill me
I'm popping in the clip when the wind blows
Every twenty seconds got me peeping out my window
Investigating the joint for traps
Checking my telephone for taps
I'm staring at the woman on the corner
It's f*cked up when your mind's playing tricks on ya
I make big money
I drive big cars
Everybody know me
It's like I'm a movie star
But late at night something ain't right
I feel I'm being tailed by the same sucker's headlights
Is it that fool that I ran off the block
Or is it that n*gga last week that I shot
Or is it the one I beat for five thousand dollars
Thought he had caine but it was Gold Medal flour
Reached under my seat, grabbed my popper for the suckers
Ain't no use to me lying
I was scareder than a motherf*cker
Hooked a left into Popeye's and bailed out quick
If it's going down let's get this sh*it over with
Here they come just like I figured
I got my hand on the motherf*cking trigger
What I saw'll make your ass start giggling
Three blind, crippled and crazy senior citizens
I live by the sword
I take my boys everywhere I go because I'm paranoid
I keep looking over my shoulder and peeping around corners
My mind is playing tricks on me
Day by day it's more impossible to cope
I feel like I'm the one that's doing dope
Can't keep a steady hand because I'm nervous
Every Sunday morning I'm in service
Praying for forgiveness
And trying to find an exit out the business
I know the Lord is lookin' at me
But yet and still it's hard for me to feel happy
I often drift when I drive
Having fatal thoughts of suicide
Bang and get it over with
And then I'm worry-free, but that's bullsh*it
I got a little boy to look after
And if I died then my child would be a bastard
I had a woman down with me
But to me it seemed like she was down to get me
She helped me out in this sh*it
But to me she was just another b*tch
Now she's back with her mother
Now I'm realizing that I love her
Now I'm feeling lonely
My mind is playing tricks on me
This year Halloween fell on a weekend
Me and Geto Boys are trick-or-treating
Robbing little kids for bags
Till a old man got behind our a*s
So we speeded up the pace
Took a look back and he was right before our face
He'd be in for a squabble no doubt
So I swung and hit the n*gga in his mouth
He was going down we figured
But this wasn't no ordinary n*gga
He stood about six or seven feet
Now that's the n*gga I'd be seeing in my sleep
So we triple-teamed on him
Dropping them motherf*cking B's on him
The more I swung, the more blood flew
Then he disappeared and my boys disappeared too
Then I felt just like a fiend
It wasn't even close to Halloween
It was dark as f*ck on the streets
My hands were all bloody, from punching on the concrete
God damn homey
My mind is playing tricks on me
You wake up every morning in this living hell
Not knowing that you're worst enemy is me
You never know what can happen within this cell
Betrayal is what I feel, revenge is what I seek
No hesitation, no turning back
I gotta do it, I have no choice
Gotta do what I gotta do for the crew
Down by law
What you did I can't
Forgive my so called brother
I can't let my feelings
Get in the way
Why you turn your back on the crew?
We always had your back, we'd die for you
You ratted on your boy, something you never do
Now his life is over and yours is too
Down by law, we made a promise to each other
A promise that you chose to break
We stuck together no matter what, my brother
You turned your back and proved you're fake
No hesitation, no turning back
I gotta do it, I have no choice
Gotta do what I gotta do for the crew
Down by law
Down by law
You've left me no choice
The strength of a gesture
A thought with no voice
Why you turn your back on the crew?
We always had your back, we'd die for you
You ratted on your boy, something you never do
Now his life is over and yours is too
The clock is ticking, you're time is up
Now's my chance, I gotta move fast
Our memories I put to rest
It's the law we chose to live by
You broke the fuckin' rules
You must die, why? Why?
Why? Why? Why?
Down by law
Yo Ease let's do this
I am a nightmare walking, psychopath talking
King of my jungle just a gangster stalking
Living life like a firecracker quick is my fuse
Vendettas of death back; the colors I choose
Red or Blue, Cuz or Blood, it just don't matter
Sucker dive for your life when my shotgun scatters
The gangs of L.A. will never die – just multiply
You see they hit us then we hit them
Then we hit them and they hit us, man
It's like a war, ya know what I'm sayin'
People don't even understand
They don't even know what they dealing with
You wanna get rid of the gangs it's gonna take a lotta work
But people don't understand the size of this
This is no joke man, this is real
You don't know me, fool
You disown me, cool
I don't need your assistance, social persistence
Any problem I got I just put my fist in
My life is violent but violent is life
Peace is a dream, reality is a knife
My colors, my honour, my colors, my all
With my colors upon me one soldier stands tall
Tell me what have you left me, what have I got
Last night in cold blood my young brother got shot
My homeboy got jacked
My mother's on crack
My sister can't work 'cause her arms show tracks
Madness insanity live in profanity
Then some punk claimin' they're understandin' me
Give me a break, what world do you live in
Death is my set, guess my religion
Yo my brother was a gang banger
And all my homeboys bang
I don't know why I do it man, I just do it
I never had much of nothing man
Look at you man, you've got everything going for yourself
And I ain't got nothing man, I've got nothing
I'm living in the ghetto man
Just look at me man, look at me
My pants are sagging braided hair
Suckers stare but I don't care
My game ain't knowledge my game's fear
I've no remorse so squares beware
But my true mission is just revenge
You ain't in my set, you ain't my friend
Wear the wrong color your life could end
Homicide's my favorite binge
Listen to me man
No matter what you do don't ever join a gang
You don't wanna be in it man
You're just gonna end up in a mix of dead friends and time in jail I
Know, if
I had a chance like you
I would never be in a gang man
But I didn't have a chance
You know I wish I did
I'll just walk like a giant police defiant
You'll say to stop but I'll say that I can't
My gang's my family it's all that I have
I'm a star, on the walls is my autograph
You don't like it, so you know where you can go
'Cause the streets are my stage and terror's my show
Psycho-analyze tried diagnosing me why?
It wasn't your brother that brutally died
But it was mine, so let me define
My territory don't cross the line
Don't try to act crazy
'Cause that shit don't faze me
If you ran like a punk
It wouldn't amaze me
'Cause my color's death
Though we all want peace
But our war won't end
'Til all wars cease
See the wars of the street gangs will always get to me man
But I don't wanna be down with this situation man
But I'm in here, if I had something better to do I think I'd do it but
Right
Now I'm just down here boy
I'm trying to get money 'cause I'm smart
I'm gonna get paid while I'm out here
I'm gonna get that paper, ya know what I'm saying
If I had a chance like you
Maybe I would be in school
But I'm not, I'm out here living day to day surviving
And I'm willing to die for my colors
Yo'll please stop, 'cause I want ya all to live
This is Ice-T, Peace
They ask why do we dress this way
Live for now--Don't understand today
See the kids--But don't hear what they say
Close your eyes and look the other way
Say the end justifies the means
Gonna lock us up and throw away the keys
Crucified--Crucified for your sins
Crucified--Crucified for your sins
They don't know our feelings--only desperate cries
They see reflections through distorted eyes
We don't care because it breaks their views
Got to learn to fight to live
Before they grind us under heel
We're the targets so easy to find
And we're the ones that won't stay in line
I find myself nailed to a cross
For something that I didn't do
It's your fault you've ruined our lives
And we're the ones you crucify
You're the ones who commit the crimes
But it's always us who do the time
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